:) JOY.

12 Apr

So I have to say, after walking across nearly 8 feet of 2000 degree Fahrenheit coals… I finally genuinely get the purpose behind it. Although I was successful in fulfilling the purpose behind the firewalk because I didn’t get burned– I GET IT! I used to be in a place of complete sadness & depression– I allowed those emotions to control my life and I got some kind of sick pleasure being there. I finally asked myself one day (and let me emphasize the POWER of asking the right questions) “What does being depressed and sad do for me? Like why does it feel so comfortable being in this place?” Being in that place filled certain needs of mine (which we all have needs), I know– weird & twisted. Like maybe the need of security or certainty… I’m still not 100% on that BUT the good thing is that asking myself those questions gave me a completely different perspective on why I was the way I was and why I was okay with it. Something shifted in me, I would consciously choose from there on out to take my control and power back over my emotions. Because although they are there, they do not run my life. I RUN MY LIFE :) .

So back to the fire walk– to prep us for this adrenaline-induced experience, Mr. Tony Robbins had to place 3,000 people in a very strong state with full intensity. We had to be able to snap our fingers or clench our fists to come OUT of fear and into a state of pure pleasure, joy, happiness… Obviously fear would step in while looking at the 8 feet in front of you of burning coal but what was important was making sure it didn’t get the best of you and stop you from stepping out! Resisting or suppressing fear (or any emotion) only leads to that emotion gaining more fire and more momentum and more power that will ultimately destroy you. The key is to “dance” with your fear (or whichever emotion it is). Not only that, but to keep your mind on the end result. How outstanding and amazing will you feel at the end? What does that feeling look like? Keep THAT feeling + image right there at your finger tips anytime your mind goes into an emotion you aren’t willing to feel or that could possibly ruin an experience. Focusing on your fear while walking across the fire is going to get you burned.

I finally was blessed with an obstacle that allowed me to practice my firewalking skills… except this was a metaphoric firewalk. Stepping onto the “coals” were way out of my comfort zone and doing so would cause extreme sadness and vulnerability which because I absolutely did not ever want to feel that again, was quite hard for me to do. Well, I kept my mind on the end result of what I ultimately wanted and WHY I ultimately wanted this and stepped out onto the coal. The second I got distracted and my mind started getting the best of me, I would immediately change my focus onto something else. I refuse to feel that pain anymore. I choose JOY. My mind is no longer allowed to get the best of me and go in any direction it so pleases, that’s my choice.

For someone with a usually sporadic mind, this was very empowering for me to take back my own power from myself. It’s true when they say “you are your own worst enemy.” However– it’s up to you to take that power back from your enemy (yourself) so you no longer struggle like you did before…

Granted, it’s okay to feel what you feel good or bad… the important part is making sure you keep it under control (at least the negative) and not letting it take control…

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